SHAGRATH ELLESSAR

The Lord replied. My son my precious child. I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.

I’ve come up a new name for my future band entitled: “Den mørke vind” which means “The Dark Wind”

Girls are bad, liars, only please with their mouth and hate with their actions. They are wicked and lied to me. Last forever but cant even last for a week. Fucking rubbish, comes from loads of fuck. Yeah im fucking stupid to believe the lies of them. Wish they dont exist. They are but wolves in disguises. Look like sheep but are wolves. Gentle like sheep but fierce like tigers. All girls are LIARS!!!

Maybe its not my weekend. But its gonna be my year!!! No doctors can ever fixed my broken heart! Only love can restore it back. I need love NOW!!!!!!

Love is something I always wanted all my life. But finding and getting it is a far difference. I thought someone in church love me. Someone who cared and was there when I’m lonely. Someone who didn’t want me to smoke, someone who would go so far as to be angry with me just to stop me from doing so.

Well, if that someone is reading this, I’ve already stopped smoking. So maybe we fought for no reason. Maybe I shouldn’t let you know in the first place. But I did. Recently I found someone that I thought I could be with forever. I said that I will marry her, I made my mother angry at me so I can get her to believe that my mother doesn’t care about me. She said that my mother will never hate me. I mean don’t all mothers love their child?

Then I realise that this girl wasn’t the one for me. I just felt that in my heart but I didn’t want to be lonely so I went on looking for another one. Soon I found someone who said “Love you” to me. First time a girl said that to me when I heard that I was so happy. But that joyful moment only last for a while. For she left me broken hearted. Broken hearted for the 4th time. IN MY LIFE, I ALWAYS WANTED LOVE!!! But it seemed so difficult to get it.

Because of that 4th time, it made me not believe in love anymore. And not anymore will I waste my time on this!!!!!

I Still remember how we met. I was alone when you came and attend to me. You showed me love before I could do anything. The next day you wave goodbye at me. I wish we could be with each other despite though our age differences. God bless U!!!